Rain Drops on Roses...

The song lists wonderful favourite things...whiskers on kittens, bright paper packages tied up with string...Gabrielle has anew favourite thing these days. Crying. Lots of it. All the time. Between the constant crying and lack of napping, somethings got to give, and I think it might be my mind.
I find myself wishing away the days, hoping that the next passes faster than the last so that we can get through these days of early morning wake-ups, followed by feedings (which, thankfully - are still going great - she is eating so well) and then the cycle of changing and trying to get Gabrielle to nap - always unsuccessfully - and mom trying to get a bite of food in every once in a while. I thought that maybe it is a food allergy that I am passing on to her - somehow - but how do we cut out everything. I'd have to only eat turkey, plain pasta, maybe spinach or something, and water. How long can this go on for? The only thing that stops the constant fussing and crying is excessive bouncing (are we shaking our baby too much?) and night time.
I don't want to regret wishing away this "wonderful time" as so many people have told me this is suppose to be - but I hate it. I know that hate is a strong word - but there is just nothing enjoyable these days. The occasional smile from her, the occasional moment of quiet - but the rest of the time - I just ask myself what have we done? I don't know what to do. I'm mad at myself for not knowing how do deal with this...I know all babies aren't like this because everyone else I talk to has these angelic little ones that seem to be taking in the world around them, smiling and enjoying life. How can Gabrielle be enjoying anything when all she does is cry. I feel like I've completely failed her.